♡ Together since: July 2022
♡ Relationship status: It's complicated
♡ Nicknames for him: None
♡ Nicknames for me: Nothing polite
♡ Tropes: 'Good girl' x 'bad boy', corruption, Stockholm syndrome, incomprehensible love
Zenya Okinaga
sweet pool
Content warning: While not explicit or graphic, this page will make references to: sexual coersion, pregnancy/infertility, sickness, body horror, kidnapping, gaslighting and emotional manipulation, and will romanticize unhealthy behaviors. Tread carefully!
Backstory
I found myself attached to Zenya almost immediately as soon as I began playing the game. While I knew that I would like him from the vague knowledge I had of sweet pool prior to playing it, I underestimated the effect he would have on me. There's something extremely interesting and engaging about him to me, and I have spent an ungodly amount of time thinking extremely intense and impossible to explain things about him.
About Zenya
Zenya is one of three possible love interests in Nitro+Chiral's horror BL game sweet pool. His ending comes up first chronologically and is also the shortest in the game, serving as a sort of early game over.
Zenya cares only for himself and his own well-being, aside from his beloved pet lizard, Kristi, and his bodyguard, Kitani. He skips class and has no relationships with anyone his age or outside of his small family dynamic. He has a very extreme personality and lashes out a lot for attention, screaming when he doesn't get his way or even sometimes just for fun.
He has a debilitating condition that leaves him suffering from excruciating physical pain every day at five PM. His body attempts to tear itself apart from the inside, and he spends this agonizing time huddled by himself until the pain subsides. A side effect of his condition is complete infertility, something that haunts him deeply, as he was taught from a young age that his purpose in life was to father offspring.
About My S/I
My S/I has very little personality or anything of note besides the fact that she's basically me. She is just a Normal Girl TM and horrible things do indeed happen to her!! She's a student at the same school as Zenya, but has never run into him before the start of their odd relationship; she knew of him from rumors, though.
She has only had one relationship before Zenya - a boyfriend who was very cruel and treated her quite poorly. He would try to pressure her into things she wasn't ready for, and ended up breaking up with her when she didn't comply. She was completely devastated. After her breakup, she tried desperately to catch the attention of any guy who would give her the time of day - and (un?)fortunately, Zenya was the one who did.
Lore
(You can read an alternate, somewhat sanitized version of our lore written for my main site here if you prefer.)
As mentioned in the link above (though it is not required to read!), Zenya and I end up together in a bit of an awful way. He sees me in a vulnerable emotional state after being broken up with and takes it as a chance to pounce on me. Devastated after being dumped and still dealing with the raw heartbreak, the need for someone else to express an interest in me blinds me from the obvious red flags surrounding Zenya, and I follow him without question.
The reason my ex broke up with me was because I wasn't willing to 'put out'. I internalize this as there being something wrong with me, when in actuality he was trying to push me into doing something I didn't want to, or wasn't able to do. When Zenya pulls me along to a skeevy love hotel and I realize what he wants me to do, I'm overcome with the feeling that I want him to like me. So even though I don't really want to, we end up doing what he wants.
The reason Zenya approached me in the first place wasn't out of any genuine feelings; that much is obvious. But what I'm not aware of is that his intentions were even more dubious than they appeared. Zenya's body is unable to reproduce with others who carry flesh seeds, and the idea of attempting it with a human was an amusing distraction. There was a very real chance that it might kill me - not that he cared. However, since the parasites can't survive in a human womb, I survive the encounter with only short-term damage.
Zenya is somewhat intrigued by the fact that I survived without too much damage, but doesn't care for me beyond that. I, on the other hand, become somewhat obsessed with him without even knowing why. I can't stop thinking about that night and it ends up causing me to chase after him. Zenya finds my behavior pathetic - and yet, somehow amusing at the same time. We continue to have one night stands every once in a while, but as I get more and more obsessed with him and our encounters increase in frequency, he decides to make it 'official' and kidnaps me to keep me easily accessible.
Paradoxically, this is what jolts me out of my obsession and back into common sense. Realizing what a mess I've gotten myself into, we're now at a reversal of the original situation: Zenya, who is now comfortable with and perhaps even slightly fond of me, pursuing me while I have no interest (not that I really have a choice in the matter, since I'm now a permanent resident in the Okinaga household). This portion of our relationship is tense and strained, but I eventually come around again.
Eventually, we end up at the point where I am so dedicated to him that I can barely function without him, and he's quite elated by this. We live in the same household and spend each and every day together. Our relationship will never be on equal footing, but this is as close as it will get - Zenya doesn't have the capacity to respect me, but he is quite fond of me, and the thought of giving me up at this point is extremely unpleasant to him. He tells me the truth about his condition and why I feel so ill when we're together, but I don't mind; it's just something we have to deal with. We make each other happy and perhaps, if you don't think about it too hard, we are good for each other. At the very least, I'm a good distraction to keep his destructive impulses on a smaller scale than usual.
What I Love About Him
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Extra
♡ I run a Zenya fanlisting that you can join here!
♡ You can visit my Zenya shrine on my main website here!